9/6/03 - I'm still thinking of Oprah show and the fabulous people that took weight off without help or drugs or anything like that. Just a will to live their lives and be in control of it instead of sitting around feeling sorry for theirselves. They are to be applauded.

Hello...my name is June and today I discovered I had put on the 8 lbs I had lost. Today I weighed in at 256. I must take control of my own life. I WILL take control of my life. I need to change my eating habits, not just diet and then go off of it. Pretty much I like eating healthy, it's just that I lost sight of what is healthy. I've reached that time of life that I want candy, cookies, pies, etc., and after not being a sweetaholic, I can tell you this stuff is fabulous. Or is it? It doesn't make me feel better. In fact, it makes me feel ill later. Am I a diabetic that has been able to keep the diabetes under control? I usually have low blood sugar when tested. Interesting theory and one that I should pay attention to.

This is my struggle and may God be with me. I cannot do this alone.